I can feel it.
My energy is slowly coming back.
Not all at once. Not like before.
But enough for me to notice.
And I’m grateful.
But at the same time…
Continue readingI can feel it.
My energy is slowly coming back.
Not all at once. Not like before.
But enough for me to notice.
And I’m grateful.
But at the same time…
Continue readingI’ve always been strong.
I run businesses, albeit small.
I take care of my family.
I show up for everyone.
And I know I’m not the only one.
A lot of moms… a lot of wives… are like this.
We carry so much.
We keep going, even when we’re tired.
We hold everything together, even when we’re quietly falling apart inside.
And sometimes, we don’t even realize how much we’ve been carrying…
until something breaks us open.
(The Final Chapter of the Baby Lux Story)
The night before the surgery was the night we were admitted through the Emergency Room.
Everything had happened so quickly — the unexpected ultrasound results, the doctor’s explanation about a possible molar pregnancy, the sudden instruction to go straight to the hospital.
By the time we were finally settled into our room, all three of us were emotionally drained.
Continue readingThat afternoon, I began quietly counting the minutes.
Around 1:30 p.m., I kept glancing at the clock. We had originally been told that I might be wheeled to the operating room around 2:00 p.m., but one of the resident doctors had also warned me earlier that my OB still had other patients scheduled before me.
So it might be 3:00 p.m.
Or even 4:00 p.m.
Still, the waiting made every minute feel longer.
Nurses came in and out of the room throughout the afternoon, checking my blood pressure, oxygen levels, and asking the usual questions. Each time the door opened, I wondered if it was finally time.
At 3:30 p.m., the gurney finally arrived.
Continue readingPart 1 ended with us entering the hospital not knowing exactly what the next hours would bring.
Morning came anyway.
And with it came the quiet understanding that the day ahead would ask us to let go of the life we had begun imagining.
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