Last month, I was in such a different place.

September felt hopeful. I had just celebrated reaching my financial goal way ahead of schedule — in August, no less! 🥂 I remember feeling proud, grateful, and full of energy. I even wrote about my excitement to finally start doing things differently. I wanted to create from a place of joy. I aimed to explore projects that truly spark something in me.

I thought October would be the month I’d ride that wave of momentum.

But here I am… and it doesn’t feel that way at all.

The Unexpected Shift

Instead of joy overflowing, I feel drained. Instead of feeling inspired, I feel depleted.

It’s like I’ve been pouring so much of myself — my time, my energy, my heart — into places that don’t seem to pour back into me. The more I try to push forward, the heavier everything feels.

And the hardest part? The sudden shifts. One moment I’m celebrating, alive with possibility, the next I’m empty, sad, and wondering if I have anything left to give.

This roller coaster of emotions — the highs that come so quickly and the lows that follow even faster — is exhausting.

The Honest Truth

October has always been my favorite month. 🍂
It usually feels like magic, like beginnings, like cozy nights full of promise.

But this October feels… different. And maybe that’s what life is reminding me right now: not every season will be the same.

Sometimes even our favorite chapters come with plot twists.

The Gentle Reframe

Maybe this October isn’t about sparkling. Maybe it’s about slowing down.

Maybe it’s asking me to pause and notice how much I’ve been giving without receiving. Maybe it’s a season that’s teaching me to sit with the discomfort instead of running from it.

And maybe it’s reminding me that, just like the trees let go of their leaves, I too need to release what no longer sustains me — even if it’s hard.

If You’re Here Too

If you’re reading this and you’ve also gone from “high hopes” to “heavy heart” in what feels like the blink of an eye, please know this: you’re not alone.

It’s okay to not feel okay — even in a month you normally love. It’s okay to admit you’re burnt out, or sad, or that your spark feels dim.

Because this, too, is part of the human experience. And the seasons always shift. So will we.

My Little Promise

So here’s what I’m promising myself this October:

• To honor the joy I felt in September without forcing it now.
• To leave space for what lights me up, without pressure or deadlines.
• To allow myself to rest and refill my cup, trusting that the spark will return.

And maybe, just maybe, this gentler pace is exactly what I need.

A MomTraNeur Reflection

Being a mom, a traveler, and an entrepreneur — a MomTraNeur — means living through seasons of both overflow and emptiness. Some months I’m celebrating wins and bursting with creativity. Other months, like this one, I’m learning to sit with the lows.

Both are part of the journey. Both shape me into who I am becoming. And if there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that even in the heaviest seasons, there’s always a lesson waiting to be carried into the next.