It’s our 25th monthsary and baby Tuz’s 10th month! We’ve been busy the past month at home taking care of our baby, celebrating our two years together (which I will still blog about — I still have a few more Tagaytay posts lined up in draft mode), doing personal projects and going out that I haven’t really had the time to fully reflect back on our life together and how it all came to be. You see, when you reminisce the past, it gives you more reason to be grateful for with what you have today. Don’t you think? And that’s what I’d like to do here through this blog post.

Since we love to travel whenever we can, we thought of doing a much needed vacation this weekend where we’ll relax, surf, look at beautiful views and what-not… so before we get all busy with nature, I thought of sharing a story… one of my many stories. I’m the type of person who likes to  remember the past as long as that past has turned me into a better person today and keeps doing so. Otherwise, into my mind’s recycle bin they go. Lol!

Anyway, this story is something I already wrote more than 2 years ago that I wanted to publish here… It’s a bit long for a blog post so if you’re one of my readers or if you’re new to this blog, you can read it section by section or chapter by chapter. This one has 3 chapters, just something to occupy your free time and hopefully learn from. Whether you do your reading in the toilet (like I do when I read some of my books, online news and other people’s blogs) or in the car in the middle of traffic or wherever you do your reading, that’s alright and much appreciated. I just want to tell you some bits and pieces about my life and hope to inspire you as well. 😉

CHAPTER 1: MORE THAN 2 YEARS AGO, MY QUEST FOR FINDING TRUE LOVE BEGAN…

So I got very, very curious. Since I am undergoing a “divorce” (I’ve been separated from my ex for 4 months now) and I don’t want to waste my time mulling over what went wrong nor do I want to make the mistake of jumping from one bad relationship to the next (I am 36 after all!), I decided to at least educate myself on how to find my one true love, my prince charming so to speak. I am very conservative when it comes to my love life. I always have been. I never dated even when I was in my teens or before I got hitched. I’ve only had 1 major boyfriend for three years before my most recent ex and I only gave him my sweet yes when I was 18! When we broke up at age 21, we were both virgins. Then my ex came into the picture and after 15 years total, we parted ways. So in a way, I am back to virgin territory. My ex probably expect me to date left and right but it’s just not me.

Aristotle said there is always a reason for everything that happens. Every experience is meant to shape you, define you—and hopefully, alas, grow you into the Mightiest You possible.

You can choose to grow into your Mightiest Self, if you choose to stay a good, loving, soulful person aimed at becoming your Mightiest Human Being Self. Then you can more easily bend with stormy winds— instead of angrily resisting them, and getting blown sideways.

In other words: You know that nasty break up you endured? You can choose to lovingly rename the experience: “THE BREAK UP THAT LED TO THE BREAKDOWN THAT LED TO THE BREAKTHROUGH!”

Of course when things are going badly, there’s always a tempting urge to Bonsai Yourself—to shut down and shut off—to give in and give up—to get bitter, resentful, angry, spiteful, depressed, self-destructive, antisocial—and all before breakfast!

But here’s the GREAT NEWS: You are guaranteed a happier life if you consistently choose to be a good, loving, soulful person—and consciously keep your “life end goal” in mind—to become your Mightiest Human Being Self.*

Here’s a technique to break bad relationship patterns for good so you can snag a happily ever after future with a Prince Charming.

Another superficially alluring quality most girls have been suckered in by is humor. Unfortunately, funniness is a mere decorative quality—sometimes developed to avoid talking about real life issues… when true soul shows up as one that avoids honest communication, warm empathy and the desire for growth. Basically, friggin’ funny is only the tiniest tip of a person. Meanwhile, a person’s soul is a person’s foundation!

Aristotle wasn’t against finding someone who is friggin’ funny—or friggin’ sexy, friggin’ smart, friggin’ rich, friggin’ charismatic. Indeed, Aristotle believed all these pleasure-bringing yummy qualities were good for stirring up passion—which we humans need to feel to be our fullest selves! But Aristotle also recognized superficial lures and material goods were simply what he called “means to the ends” of happiness—not “the final ends” of happiness itself.

Basically, it doesn’t matter how rich a guy is if his behavior makes you twitchy and miserable. Personally, I’d rather split a tuna fish sandwich with a Prince Charming than a lobster feast with a Prince Harming.

While on the subject of money, I want to point out that Aristotle was no fan of slackers either. Aristotle recognized that being poor or dating poor brought its own share of problems. Aristotle even strongly admitted that the lack of a certain amount of wealth was as much an obstacle to happiness as deprivation of freedom. He gladly accepted that some wealth was even needed to be happy—just as exciting bodily pleasures were also needed. But once again— wealth and bodily pleasures were simply mere means to the ultimate ends of happiness—these ultimate ends being to nourish your soul, so you can reach your most esteemed level of self.

With all this in mind, it’s essential when you first meet a man, that you take the time to sense if he’s a souldmate Prince Harming—or a soul mate Prince Charming. Unfortunately, often it’s hard to tell the difference between a Prince Harming and a Prince Charming right up-front. In the same way some women wear Wonderbras to make their boobs look better up-front, some men exaggerate who they are up-front with the fake boost of Wondercharm—and wonderhowmuchlongericanIcanactlovingtoyouwithoutcracking.or as Aristotle might warn: “Just because a guy looks good on papyrus doesn’t mean he will act good in real life.”

CHAPTER 2: THAT SAME YEAR, I ALSO WENT ON A BABY PROJECT

I had another light bulb moment while I was taking a shower a few minutes ago. I couldn’t wait to write down my thoughts so I rushed to my drawer to get an underwear, wore my panty and went in front of my computer, opened my blog and here I am now, hair still dripping wet, half naked, writing down my thoughts… It’s about my project baby.

Project Baby happened after my mind was opened to the possibility of me having a child sometime in the near future. If you must know, I used to abhor the idea of having kids because:

1. I had a difficult childhood. My parents used to be immature who fought all the time in front of me with flying plates and puppies being banged against the wall and my dad asking me to choose between him and my mommy. I was 10. It was emotionally traumatizing. Since then, I developed this firm idea that I will never EVER want to have a child of my own. It’s just too painful being a child. History might repeat itself!
2. Then I fell in love with my ex, told him about my stand about not having kids and he agreed. He basically had a traumatic childhood as well and didn’t want to have kids. Perfect!
3. Fast forward to the last couple of weeks, I’m “single” again, feeling a wee bit happier everyday with my new status and here are my family and closest friends telling me that should I change my mind and want to have a baby, I better act fast. These words even came from one of the most important persons in my life, my authority figure — my grandfather. Having heard my lolo said that was a really nice surprise! He has always wanted for me to conceive a child. But I didn’t know that he still wants it for me now that I’m not with my ex anymore. He said that the clock is ticking and that I should find a suitable man to have a family with. But still, in my mind, I was thinking “Hmmmm, let’s see lolo, I’m really not in a hurry… I still want to be rich, have that dream wedding proposal in Paris, do my beach wedding and go abroad and do stuff. I can always adopt if I want a baby!” But of course I didn’t tell him these things. It might break his heart. So kiddingly, I just told him: “Okay lolo, I’ll just put an ad saying WANTED: FATHER OF MY FUTURE CHILD” to which he just laughed. It was a genuinely good long distance phone conversation, our first in a  very long time. And now that he’s happy about my current status, I didn’t want to blow his bubble the way I did when I eloped young. So I left it at that.
4. Then a good friend of mine urged me to finally go abroad and live with her and start a new life! She is a mom of two beautiful kids, living with a wonderful partner and enjoying a great life! She does not agree with my plan of saving first, becoming a millionaire and doing all those stuff before having a baby. She said that I can always have money. But time we can never get back. For some reason, those words just struck me and for the first time, my mind was opened to the possibility of having children of my own. Hence, this PROJECT BABY.

Basically, this project is redirecting the focus of my life to me becoming a mother sometime soon. It’s not that I am in a hurry to go have sex with the first guy that comes along and bear his child! I don’t work like that.  I’ve been revirginized for far too long I can wait some more… and for Mr. Right I shall wait. Anyway, there’s always my pink dildo if my sexual desire becomes too strong. This project is just saying that everything I will do from now on, will have that baby end goal in mind. So, I should continue watching what I eat (everything in moderation); I should exercise more often; I should strive to be always happy (avoid stress!); I should save up some more; I should take this opportunity to go abroad… basically, to just plan my life right. So when my Prince Charming (the possible future father of my kids) shows up in the picture either today, tomorrow, a month from now or next year or whenever, then I will be ready.

Capisce?

On the other hand, my dreams, though seemingly shallow (being rich, having that dream wedding proposal in Paris, doing my beach wedding, going abroad, etc…) these things ARE STILL VERY IMPORTANT TO ME and when done right, will make me deliriously happy. So I hope and pray that whoever my Prince Charming will be, I hope he understands this side of me and will do his best to make these other dreams of mine come true.

That’s it for now! Til my next light bulb moment in the shower! (^_^)

***I better dress up, I’m getting cold!***

CHAPTER 3: FINALLY, A PRINCE CHARMING CANDIDATE

EPILOGUE

So here I am now after more than 2 years when these words were first written from my heart. I now have my Prince Charming and the project baby did come into fruition eventually (after much argument, debate and prayers, lol!) I believe that it’s all because of God’s divine love. He does not discriminate, he does not judge. He gives us what we need and deserve at His right time and I am forever grateful for his blessings.

To Mahal, my prince charming, looking back to 25 months ago when it was just us… so many trials have happened, yet God’s bountiful blessings came our way, miracles were showered from up above and with me you stayed. We remained strong, resilient, joyous, grateful for the life we’re living and the best of friends we remained. I love you my darling bessy turned baby. Thank you for your love and for saving me from every way a woman can be saved. You are my love, my life, my everything and together, slowly but surely, this exciting life together we’ll pave.